Monday, August 15, 2005
School has started. And i ponned school today. hah. one lecture at 8-10. nah, i conveniently overslept.
I'm taking PC1327 Science of music (which includes a music composition, essay, tests, no exam)
Also, I'm taking statistics this sem, ST1131 (intro to statistics)
And last of all my core modules, CM 2142 (analytical chemistry) CM 2132 (physical chemsitry) and CM 2111 ( inorganic chemistry).
School has been, I wish I could say FUN. But no it has been downright boring. It's just difficult to make friends in school now, every sem we take different modules, different tutorials, different lab sessions, different lectures. You meet a lot of people and know a lot of ppl. (u know they exist basically). But you just dun get a consistent group of crappy people in class, that will just say things which make you laugh and make school all just a little more interesting. Maybe it's just how the science faculty works, for arts/business/architecture maybe they got projects which helps promote student interaction, which I truly miss.
Maybe it's just preparing us for work in future. One thing's for sure, I'm so not the scientist-me-mylab-my dead boring experiment. Yes, I can do it, I can do experiments, but it's just not my thing. (ok maybe I can't do experiments, after countless accidents gosh, have I told u my *waterfountain* story? it's embarassing.)
Or maybe it's just me being antisocial. I just dun feel like stepping out of my comfort zone anymore. I have learnt to listen to my heart, when I dun feel like going out. I'm staying as a social hermit. Precisely the reason why I even lost the zest for going for bowling trainings, meetups and gatherings.
Thankful though that I still managed to make a couple of good haha-ish friends like xinyi, diannah and gina. They make my life in school just so much better. I even stopped going for bowling trainings cos trainings clash with my late nights lectures end at 8 for 2 freaking days. So now life is just like....... bleagh.
I just have to learn to get through this. I know I can do it. I will get through this. Have to. I will not be a social hermit. no more. And I will have to find myself.
Though, I should be thankful that I know that there are still friends out there that care and that I care about! So haha, yea, dun worry la, the comical crystal will return! Just give me some time.
