Wednesday, December 08, 2004
I went for bowling training today and tried not to be a social hermit anymore. So i joined the team for "dunch" (dinner plus lunch = dunch). It really different from JC, cos the seniors DROVE. oh well, yes they drove. i mean yea, i was so toot I was like oh so how are we gg there? my mum can give u guys a lift, they just stared at me and said, "erm no need, we drove here."
WOW! you know what I forgot that i was in uni already and ppl have license and cars. man. and here am i , still mummy's girl. it was utterly embarrassing i needed a hole right there and then to bury my tomato face.
anyway, so we went for dunch at yishun, nearby. yeap. It was oh my god. BORING. firstly, because I was already VERY outcasted, i was the ONLY year 1 girl bowler plus it din't help that the others that went were either in PAIRS already or a clique. so it was kinda difficult I guess. Conversation centred around," which carpark is the most expensive. what kinda of cars have you drive before? Are you gg to bea lawyer/what kind/chem engineer/where/ambitions/family/marriage dates/kids/salary/adultish stuff." So as u imagine, it was so MUNDANE and boring for me. It's as if , these guys just say a couple of years older, are already like taking up responsibilities of an adult. There weren't any crappy jokes, like when I used to hang out with the bowling friends in the past, nor lame witty humourous easy-going carefree conversation I had in NYP. To think i was complaining in the past. oh man.
So i just sat there desperately trying to fit in. All i could think of was mmm, things that happen to my mum, is what they wee discussing. In the end, I gave up, sat there and stoned. awkwardly.
So i have decided to be a social hermit. It's quite sad actually, cos I'm a social person I think, i like to hang out with ppl and friends. but here, it's just incredibly hard. I can't figure out why really. but it's just incredibly hard.
sigh, maybe it's just time for me to move out of my comfort zone, find another society or sports group and join. yeap.
whatever it is , i am just looking forward to my HK trip. oh please let it be good.
